If time creates memory and memory defines time, where am i?
Am i still in the past when i hope that the good things i have will last?
Or am i now in the present when my future steps in a split second
For sure i’m not yet in the future because i still keep my prayer in my door.
If my past defines my future, where will my present be?
Is it in the middle of the two, a prelude to a future past beyond my grasp?
If my present decides my future, who decides my past?
Wasn’t my past was also once my future in the not so distant present?
Time really confuses me, so i let go of my time. They say spend it wisely.
Does being wise mean you spend your time preparing for your future?
But how can you prepare for your future without neglecting the precious present?
How can you be wise when it goes so quickly?
Good thing i got memories.
But memories belong to the past not the future.
And time moves in a different direction, memory in another.
Time moves forward. Memory relives the past.
I’ll just enjoy the moment. I don’t know how to spend my time wisely.
I’ll just use it.
I was in a bar when i heard the song again, Sia’s The Chandelier. At 2 am something in the past comes back again. I don’t know why, there’s something with the chandelier that gives me this creepy feeling. Nope, it’s not the song, i’m referring to the “Chandelier” itself.
Although i’ve seen a hundred chandeliers in more than a hundred places, there are only two memorable occasions when the chandelier left its strong impressions.
First, when our family went to an uptown hotel, my sight was immediately centered to a humongous chandelier . As a child i was amazed by the chandelier’s intricate design. The countless artful bulbs that give its blinding lights above the red carpet at the center of the lobby seem to welcome you with a screaming voice, announcing your arrival. It was beautiful. I was mesmerized until we went to a wake of a relative. From then on, it change everything.
I was a child when we visit a relative. The funeral home with its huge chandelier. The chandelier had made its impact on my young mind.
The place evokes sadness, while the adults were having their conversation, i was left alone tending for myself. Since the place is not huge unlike that posh hotel, my wandering eyes were just restricted to the huge chandelier above the coffin.
At the center i see nothing but the white box and the chandelier. And since i refused to look at the white box, my time was spent most of the time on that intricate but creepy chandelier.
Of course there were flowers, but the chandelier’s presence is too strong to be ignored. Its brass finished, its design and the lights seem like a distraction. Who would ever thought of putting a chandelier in a funeral home?
Their existence was supposed to be just for the sole purpose of welcoming us for a celebration, the one with grandeur and splendor like the one in the posh hotel..
But things have changed, as i reached the middle age, i realized that death is not something to be afraid of. Now i know why there’s a chandelier on that place, death is a milestone, a step to the next dimension .
And the Chandelier and its lights welcomes our arrival to that final destination.
Although honestly, it’s an event i have long accepted that is bound to happen. It’s the only future event that i don’t really look forward to. 🙂
So call me crazy , everytime i see a huge chandelier, i always take a second look because it always remind me of a wake, a funeral place.
I remember visiting a relative in L.A. As soon as we entered her huge beautiful home, a huge chandelier welcome us and i tactlessly told my mom, “Oh My God Mom, this place looks like a funeral home, a huge mausoleum” (all white interior with fresh flowers, high ceiling and a huge chandelier).
Good thing, it’s just my mom who heard me, otherwise I might have offended our kind relative. I have no intention of hurting anyone’s feelings and i have no right to question anyone’s taste, it’s just that a place with a huge chandelier reminds me of a funeral home. My weird and crazy mind.
Looking back at this photo, I can see myself barely smiling. Some memories are never forgotten. Years after, I still remember………….The Chandelier.
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“Hawaii is paradise. It sounds cheesy to say it, but there’s music in the air there.”. –Bruno Mars.
Yes, there’s music, a melody that springs from your heart and a rhythm that springs from your hope. Hawaii is such a beautiful place, some say it’s a paradise, others say it is heaven.
No matter how you call it, one thing is sure, you can’t get enough of it especially when you’re about to leave. It’s a mini California: countless beaches . only bigger waves for surfers, endless branded boutiques and countless hollywood celebrities.
Should I say a a mini vegas too? So many hotels, exotic and world class shows. A mini Jamaica because reggae is everywhere. So many Japanese, Asians, Europeans; domestic and international tourists.
History, Culture, Shopping, Nature, for such a small state, there’s so much things to do and so many places to see. You walk , bike, drive, swim, surf or dive, or just simply do nothing, lay on the beach and watch the sunset and the changing colors of the sky.
I’d love to post all my pictures here, Hawaii is such a paradise i believe it needs a whole website for it.
I remember walking by the beach and witnessing a beach wedding and a funeral simultaneously happening, reminding me of life itself where falling in love is like experiencing the joys of wedding and break ups giving you the feel of attending your own funeral. Life is a bitch really. Ooops, I mean Life is a Beach. 🙂
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**Photo was taken while visiting my high schoolmates in California. They brought me to Dell’Osso Family Farm in Tracy for a wonderful game of racing through the biggest corn maze in the United States. I lost in the race but win priceless memories of bonding with my classmates and their kids. How time flies.
I have to write a blogpost regarding these events and i am in a quandary as what to post.
Should i make a beautiful artwork of my past halloween photos, those flirty gay costumes that led to a one night stand somewhere in west hollywood?
or narrate my real life ghost stories, the “I SEE DEAD PEOPLE” kind of thing that almost resemble that Bruce Willis Sixth Sense movie?
Hmm, or just post something about My Favorite Ghost Movies. Let Me think.
All right, i’ll go with the subtle one first : My Favorite Ghost Movies (listed in no particular order just like those finalists in Miss Universe contest).
Somewhere in Time (Christopher Reeve and Jane Seymour)
This is a classic movie. This is the very first movie that made me cry. Why? Honestly? Simply because i don’t understand the story.
I was in grade school playing with my neighbour when her sister and her sister’s gay friends started screaming because they’ll be watching the gorgeous mister superman christopher reeve.
While I was playing dolls with my gal pal, I’m also watching the film, although I never really understood the plot as my playmate keep talking to me.
What I knew was this film made the gay guys cry and I don’t know why I also cried with them . And when they started singing that “Somewhere in Time “ song, I can see in their faces that they really mean every word of it. (which I later understood when I had my first broken heart)
Years after, during my high school days I look for this film and this time watch it all alone and oh boy, it’s really a touchy movie. Looking back I can say it’s not your typical ghost story. It’s actually more of a fantasy love story , more of a time travel , back to the past sort of thing.
Ghost (Demi Moore, Patrick Swayze, Whoopi Goldberg)
What can I say? Another movie that made me cry but this time I knew why.
A commercial success that proves that a ghost movie need not be that horrifying and grotesque to be a blockbuster hit.
I love Demi Moore , her beautiful face and trendy short hair is unforgettable and that lip lock with Whoopi is such an epic scene for me. Beautiful.
This movie shows what true love is all about even after death.
And who would ever forget Ghost theme song “Unchained Melody”, the ghost song that riveted all over the radios and pop charts even years after the movie was shown.
Just Like Heaven (Reese Witherspoon, Mark Ruffalo)
One of my favorite Reese Witherspoon’s movie. This is a heartwarming cute love story This is about an architect falling in love with the spirit of the woman who used to live in his apartment.
Well, I don’t really have to tell you the whole story. I’m not making a review here either. I just like this movie and I like Reese Witherspoon . ( and Julia Roberts and Sandra Bullock and Meryl Streep who happened to be not in this movie 😉 )
The Sixth Sense ( Bruce Willis, Haley Joel Osment)
“I see dead people….. all the time. They don’t know they’re dead. They’re everywhere.”
Truly one of my favorite ghost movies.
Some people may not agree with me but there are things that up to now science can’t still explain and seeing dead people or ghosts is one of them. Some call it a gift, others call it a curse.
Whatever it is, this movie made me realized that whatever gift you have, one must always use it for the right reasons.
The brilliant performance of a young guy haley would really make you believe he is scared to death, and really seeing ghosts. Superb acting.
And yes, this movie is also all about love, being accepted for who you are and believing in yourself even if others call you a freak .
This movie made me cry again. (I am such a cry baby and who would ever think a ghost movie would make me shed tears?)
The Others (Nicole kidman)
“ Death of a loved one can lead people to do the strangest things.”
“Sometimes the world of the living gets mixed up with the world of the dead”
Such a brilliant way of storytelling. One thing good about this movie is the way the story is being narrated.
The suspense, the angst of putting you at the edge of your seat just by making you think.
The unexpected twist in the ending.
This is not a typical ghost story where you have to scream at every scene, where you need dark cinematography to scare your wits.
Its simple no frills, no high technology make up or production , can still make you think and wonder what the hell is going on and still end up not being shortchange.
Truly a masterpiece. I must say This is my All Time Favorite Ghost Movie.
The Ghostbusters (Dan Akroyd)
Enough of the heavy ones. This film is a mushy ghost movie that made me laugh. The only ghost movie where I keep laughing.
The plastic gadgets that we all bought on a mall just to appear cool during Halloweens. This movie is a crap, but the only crap that I really love.
And nothing can be funnier when you sing that song “If there’s something strange in the neighbourhood, who you gonna call? Ghostbusters!”
Unforgettable song for growing kids, who would ever imagine we would sing and dance this on our Christmas Presentation and it’s not even Halloween.